I have felt this feeling before. At other times in my life. Feeling like I’m stuck where I am but knowing that I’m capable of more. That I will do more. That I have to put in the time. Be deliberate. Stay focused.
I felt this way in 2009 when I was trying to be the US single at the world championships. This dissatisfaction at my own mistakes but also deep knowledge that I could do what I dreamed of doing. That I had to go an execute. And stare down the naysayers. I spoke with such confidence then even though it was uncertain whether I’d get the chance to try again.
And I feel a similar dissatisfaction now. Knowing what I’m capable of. Annoyed that I’ve talked myself down. Played down what I am capable of. And figuring out how to create chances for myself again. Clawing back from failure. and figuring out how to be definitive.
When I feel like this I know there is greatness just around the corner. I know this because I’m not willing to settle. I don’t give up. I give my best. And I relentlessly pursue and live my truth.
So many times before I’ve had this feeling and what has given me power is saying with clarity “I want …”
When I say it I make it happen. So out of uncertainty comes the purest clarity and purpose. It’s just around the corner. Ready. Let’s go.
