I like to have all my ducks in a row before chaos ensues. That way I know where the things I need the most are when everything else goes haywire.
But it’s exhausting. And sometimes I wonder if it might be better to just let things be a bit disorganized. Will it really matter in the long run if my shirts are rolled up neatly in their drawer. Is it worth the added time and energy that could be spent elsewhere or resting?
Or maybe if I tried to rest I’d spend the whole time worrying about all the crap that needed to get done or other things. Staying occupied keeps my mind focused and not wandering to other deeper and possibly more painful things.
Maybe there’s an in between that I haven’t found yet. I run myself ragged and then get crabby and it just doesn’t make sense. But I also prefer that I’m not walking on layers of dog fur and dirt and sometimes I just need to sweep the floor.
Do ALL the ducks need to be in a row? And all in ONE row? Am I taking crazy?
I’m pooped. Time to sleep a thousand sleeps.
