Silly

I remember your faces and dances. The stories you’d tell me about all the goofy things you’ve done. It made me smile. I hadn’t thought about how silly you were for quite some time. It was one of the first times in a long while that I didn’t cry and get upset when thinking...

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High And Low

You go up. And you go down. To expect a flat ride out of life would not only be absurd it would be so boring. Ride the highs and endure the lows. You can’t have one without the other. It’s still a beautiful journey that we get to live out....

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Swept Away

That is what can become of our dreams, the things that matter to us, if we don’t pay attention. And we need to pay attention. To ponder what matters to us. So we can keep committing to it over and over again. If we don’t pay attention one day passes. Then another. And then...

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Be Here

What matters is right now in this moment. I’m singing to you while you look at me. I feel the warmth of your little body fresh from the bath. I smell your baby smell. The nightlight glowing soft and warm in the corner of the room. The future is undefined. It will be what...

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Lessons

Two things I learned today. 1. Don’t assume people want to help. Or know how to help. 2. Don’t over share There are assholes everywhere. And they might not even intend to be. But they end up being that way because they don’t know how to communicate. Or make assumptions. Or don’t know how...

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Jump

If it scares you, it’s probably worth doing. Don’t let fear, a very natural biological response stop you from doing things that matter. You’ll get past the fear in the first five minutes. And the rewards are greater than the initial anxiety you face. Facing your fears, doing things that take you out of...

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Don’t Waste Them

Right now I’m feeling so grateful that my family is safe at home. It’s so easy to make our lives feel routine and secure and predictable. But we are all tenuous in reality. We can’t predict the behavior of other people or random things that might happen. All the more reason to say I...

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I’m Sorry Is A Habit

You do something wrong. Or overreact. Lash out in anger. Act like a jerk. And then apologize. But then it happens again. Then you apologize again. And so it repeats and becomes ingrained. Good habits aren’t just about stopping bad ones. They are about creating new and more productive or even more passive responses...

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Moments

I don’t always appreciate these moments. When I’m holding my son as he falls asleep. Mouth slightly open and face relaxed and soft. He won’t always be small and snuggly. One day he’ll be too big to hold against my heart as he sleeps. I am often waiting for these moments to be over...

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