Friendship is complex. Emotions like love, jealousy, competition, insecurity, vulnerability, manipulation, envy, passion, laughter, commiseration to name a few. Friendship is a layered and chaotic ball of emotional intensity with highs and lows. In my experience the best friendships are the ones that hold nothing against you. They don’t get mad when you haven’t...
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I have nothing to say tonight....
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One for: Love Work Friends Kids Art And I get to choose when and which ones to open up and when to close them. I read the news. I hear all the terrible things that are happening in the world and somewhere in there it registers. But I’ve developed the ability to turn the...
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We drove across the country in 2013. We stopped at Wall Drug and bought a small white jackelope. We drove it to Ohio and gave it to my mom. She asked me for it. I thought she was kidding. But she wasn’t. And she put it on her book shelf in her bedroom and...
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We stopped and got a box of fresh peaches tonight. We were on a walk home. We didn’t have any cash. I inquired about the price. The guy who sells them is there every day during the summer with his truck and cargo shorts. I’d never spoken to him but he’s been there for...
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It’s easy to come up with something to fill the space. Pass it off as art. Pass it off as meaningful. Pass it off. It’s not easy to dig deep. But what I want is to share something that comes from that deep place. It’s not like I never do. I have before. It’s...
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When I still lived at my parents house my dad used to wake up early and watch tv in the living room. I’d wake up and go sit with him. But I was already annoyed. He would turn off he tv and ask me about my life. And I’d get annoyed. He just wanted...
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Sometimes you just need to tell your baby you’ll be there for them until they fall asleep. And then they fall asleep. And all is right with the world for that moment. The boys are asleep. Kady and I are relaxing together. It’s been a good night. Sleep well everyone....
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Sometimes in life we don’t make it to that next step when we want to. We might even be ready for it but for some reason we get held back. Things don’t happen in the timeline that we want. It’s frustrating. It’s annoying. It might even make us mad. But I have found that...
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Nights four and five have sucked. Sleep training sucks. Kids are insane. This is all insane. I’m too exhausted to write anything clever right now. It feels like there is no end in sight to this madness. The thing that bothers me the most is not knowing why. Why won’t he sleep? So many...
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