Days of silence Piling up Brilliance popping and then dimming It’s light out well into the evening Everything is awake and yet contained Who knows when this chaos will end Maybe never Brimming at the edge but Never feeling the release of water cascading down Don’t be so hard on yourself But on second...
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How many loves have not come to fruition The longing Constrained by timing and circumstance A held breath A glance not taken A kiss withheld For centuries stifled loves Anguish Memories not made Compounding into regret and anger and sadness How simple we could make it all If we chose love as the guiding...
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A birthday cake, hand piped flowers dyed pink and blue and green and yellow Doesn’t matter what year it was. How old you were. It was you. That’s what mattered. Sitting in the kitchen talking for hours. Feet up on the counter. Drinking a beer or a glass of wine. You and me. You...
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What will it be? What are you burning to do? What do you avoid because it takes too much time or energy or passion? What do you want to build? Don’t be paralyzed by the billions of possibilities. You know what you want. Don’t be good at putting up excuses. Don’t allow yourself to...
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I’ll soak up the hugs and kisses and I love yous. The baby smells. The baby breathing. You’re small now. One day you’ll be big. You’ll no longer fit snugly into the corners of my lap. One day isn’t here yet. Right now is. Each time I get to hold you. Feel you breathe...
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One time when I was a little girl, probably 8 or 9 a neighborhood bully ramped my brand new bike up the side of a tree. I ran and got my mom. She marched down the street and confronted the bully’s parents. I remember her body muscles rigid and poised with anger and the...
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I got a library card. Well an online account. And I’ve been borrowing books and reading them in a fury. Why I waited this long to get a library card is beyond me. And why I’ve been paying for paper books when I could be reading them for free just seems ridiculous. There are...
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You spend a year doing something every day. Building a habit. Building discipline. Doing the work. And as soon as you stop holding yourself accountable, and make an excuse, the habit breaks. The momentum stops. You stop doing the work. I think what I’ve learned so far is that if I want to post...
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When Kady first asked if we could adopt you from her sister I said no. I didn’t want a dog. I was worried about money and the responsibility. I resisted but finally relented. And you moved into our third floor attic apartment in Somerville. Little did I know the space you would come to...
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You can let adversity make you angry. You can let it push you away from those you love. You can let it become regret. Or You can accept it. You can allow it to help you see your humanity. Our common humanity. You can use it to live more fully in the moment. You’re...
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